Only Love

If you love somebody, should you always make them wait for you? From month to month and year to year? I thought my feeling for you started to disappear. Little did I know.. this tear still for you. What i really want to say is, I started getting tired of this things, and i don't wish to proceed any further. I won't wait for you more. Four years has been enough for me.

I know.. maybe your love has gone since long time ago. It's me who begged you not leave. Now, it has comes to my sense.. I understood nothing will really stay last. Even someone who said their feeling wouldn't be change. Lovers but worse than strangers. Its funnyman when the happiest memories become hurtful one. I wonder, can we really find one person who truly has their eye on us alone, the person who never said that they lost their feeling toward us?

Is it broken or tangled ? It's hard to describe this kind of feeling. In a relationship but being lonely than being single. Logically , no body would stay in relationship that doesn't make them happy. I also thought the same, I don't think I could save an unwanted love. Trying so hard to fight for this love but he just don't care single thing about you. Even when you sick, when you need them the most. He just said 'I see'. I couldn't find any point to make this last. Somehow it's also a good time to take any decision when feeling still uncertain.

Relationship starts from both people in love. Never know, once one of the love has faded, one need to beg for attention. It's funny how attention can be so expensive these days. Some people just wanted to receive more love and attention. There's nothing wrong with want to have attention without begging.

That dream as if it's real, it could be we've been longing for that person so much. Face that I haven't been since long time ago. For having so much mix emotion to see that person even just in dream. Maybe I feel guilty enough. When we did too much mistake at past, we will leave many regrets behind. We couldn't either turned back or fixed it. I wish I could say sorry and thank you so much.

They said if you truly love someone that you will never leave, but i don' think that's the case Why we should tormented ourselves just to love someone who just doesn't care anything about us Why should we stay even though we already knew that's not the right thing to do, why should will wait for the impossible change ? I asked this to myself and I still find myself no answer By this thought, I think I still prepare myself to leave It's not easy but maybe I should sooner or later Maybe last year, I lost too much person in my life so I just let you go like that but right now being with you isn't a good decision either Sometimes we just afraid to make decision because we knew we will regret it later cause things will never be back once you decided to let them go But, to trap this self into this pointless and mental draining relationship for mostly a year is really no good too. I am tired to think so much, It's not like I want to think about it but someday it