Only Love

Started to get tired of waiting, waiting something uncertain. When will it be over? Once it's over will it back to the same way?  Maybe i also start getting tired to trust.. really tired... I cried but i didn't know what did i cry for.. Maybe I was too sensitive or do i start to have some mental illness

If you love somebody, should you always make them wait for you? From month to month and year to year? I thought my feeling for you started to disappear. Little did I know.. this tear still for you. What i really want to say is, I started getting tired of this things, and i don't wish to proceed any further. I won't wait for you more. Four years has been enough for me.

I know.. maybe your love has gone since long time ago. It's me who begged you not leave. Now, it has comes to my sense.. I understood nothing will really stay last. Even someone who said their feeling wouldn't be change. Lovers but worse than strangers. Its funnyman when the happiest memories become hurtful one. I wonder, can we really find one person who truly has their eye on us alone, the person who never said that they lost their feeling toward us?

Is it broken or tangled ? It's hard to describe this kind of feeling. In a relationship but being lonely than being single. Logically , no body would stay in relationship that doesn't make them happy. I also thought the same, I don't think I could save an unwanted love. Trying so hard to fight for this love but he just don't care single thing about you. Even when you sick, when you need them the most. He just said 'I see'. I couldn't find any point to make this last. Somehow it's also a good time to take any decision when feeling still uncertain.

Relationship starts from both people in love. Never know, once one of the love has faded, one need to beg for attention. It's funny how attention can be so expensive these days. Some people just wanted to receive more love and attention. There's nothing wrong with want to have attention without begging.

That dream as if it's real, it could be we've been longing for that person so much. Face that I haven't been since long time ago. For having so much mix emotion to see that person even just in dream. Maybe I feel guilty enough. When we did too much mistake at past, we will leave many regrets behind. We couldn't either turned back or fixed it. I wish I could say sorry and thank you so much.

They said if you truly love someone that you will never leave, but i don' think that's the case Why we should tormented ourselves just to love someone who just doesn't care anything about us Why should we stay even though we already knew that's not the right thing to do, why should will wait for the impossible change ? I asked this to myself and I still find myself no answer By this thought, I think I still prepare myself to leave It's not easy but maybe I should sooner or later Maybe last year, I lost too much person in my life so I just let you go like that but right now being with you isn't a good decision either Sometimes we just afraid to make decision because we knew we will regret it later cause things will never be back once you decided to let them go But, to trap this self into this pointless and mental draining relationship for mostly a year is really no good too. I am tired to think so much, It's not like I want to think about it but someday it

I wondered where to find this. Things escalated quickly, just when I looked back it was just like a different world  But, where should i find it?  I started to forget the feeling to be loved, I wonder if I will also start to not love someone that didn't love anymore. Life and love is so complicated, It's goes so well before and in blink of eyes, the storms destroyed everything have been builded before. Isn't it so frustrating? You can be as good as nothing happened but even on your good days, you also can cry like something really tear you apart as you are not worth of living anymore Strangely, it's happens once a while. If only we could sell emotions. Maybe it will be good to feel nothing.

They said, "Don't love someone too deep until you are certain that they are the one for you". But, when it comes to love, some people will just love with all of their whole. Maybe they could love the person more than themselves. Just what is really love ? They said, love is simple but we, the human like to make it become complicated. There are lots of people who don't believe in love anymore after they love and get hurt in return. Can't the people we love return the same amount of love that we gave to them ? I think, there will be always that tend to love more. When we love too deep, it will kill us so much to the way you can't imagine. Because what ? Maybe we already expected too much, we already plan the future with them, and just imagine, it just destroy on some few words. We need to restart our life again, we need to re love anyone again. I think, now I understand some people don't want to start their love life anymore

Love is hard, if that is so easy. I thought, everyone might already found their true love. Think over and over again, It's seems like easier to start over than fix things. When everything are just completely mess. How about if we act like it's the first time we know each other again ? Will it be good enough ?

There's a part of me is dying now. Does heartbreak can hurt that much ? Maybe the amount of love that been given is indifferent than the taken one. It's surely hurt a lot to experience this feeling. Because each time this thing happened, it's getting heavier. It's feel like your soul also be taken with the person you love too. I know it may be temporary but damn it, i really hate it so much

This world sometimes too much, isn't it ? Yesterday you'd be loved, but today they no longer remember your love towards them. Yesterday you could easily heard 'I miss you' from him, but today to have a longer conversation is hard enough. Yesterday she thought he would be her happy end, but today he don't longer like her as much as yesterday's. Don't know whose wrong, things get beyond complicated, Honestly, I miss yesterday when all of things still stay so good, Right now, it just feels like things slowly grow apart ... 

She always hope if this love will give her a happy ending . It's true inside relationship, Love is not all rose. Sometimes we may go through up and down situation but, what's the most matter ? It's about understanding and how they will try to fight for each other. What if one of them stop trying ? sooner or later the other one will tired for fighting alone. She thought, if he has show no interest to her that much then, was that okay for her to approached him again and again ?  It's feel like being unwanted but force him to look at her. She just stay, unknowingly don't know what to to. Being hurt by her own mind. She not as strong as he think. Every night, before she could really falls a sleep, she always keep thinking "What things has gone wrong ?". Hope that she will be able to choose her own path.

It just her fault to begin with, love him too much and expect she is the only one that he will love. What can more hurt than expectation that had already crushed

It's tiring either to leave or to stay, Yes.. Just keep lying to me

Don't get too full of yourself or being so prideful of yourself just because you claimed that so many males interested in you. It's so funny for somebody who fakes their innocence but tries to get in other people's relationships not for once only. Is that something you would call a good person?

I almost reach a peak of the limit. I am tired to face this every day. I don't want to think anymore. Didn't everyone also being tired of being hurt by the same person day by day? They said they want to change yet they don't have a will to change

Oh man, please don't be such a jerk Today say this and tomorrow change your mind again ??? Please be consistent t your words, Do you even have a principle ?